suicide letter from hell...

Dear all,

Yesterday I committed suicide. The fear of the unknown pushed me into mixing alcohol with some random unlicensed drugs shipped illegally from South America. My boring monotonous life pushed me into taking this step, life was at its peak, which made me think of my days to come!

Frustrated from eating off newspapers and from plastic bags, life of "the others" eating on tables and using silverware was starting to appeal to me. I had to put end to my fantasies of sleeping in an air-conditioned room, and wearing shoes that fit.

Finally, somewhere between not knowing if it was day or night, hot or cold, I did it. Now my dear friends I am dead.

The after life sucks, I am in hell. I didn’t know it was a fact that anyone who commits suicide gets a one way ticket to hell. I honestly thought that some good deeds will out rule the suicide factor.

It horrific I can't even begin to explain. The kebabs are made of thorns, blazing spicy flames are always there to quench my thirst and no need to think of shoes that fit, and I walk on sharp edged fiery hot nails the whole day.

It's very hi-tech here, so not 18th century as we imagined when alive. We have to stand in a queue and get a flaming number in order to go into one of the penalty rooms. Of course there are many different ones. It’s a whole city filled with heated metal sky scrapers, each one built for a different audience. Every floor for a different purpose, then according to how "naughty u were" you will be assigned to a certain room.

The day is always slow; it starts of slow with a long list of rooms to "visit" followed by yet another list of long chores.

I am not afraid; I am overwhelmed with numbness I have no time to be afraid. I miss you all. I will email soon again. Hang in there.

Your ex miserable friend....

With Dubai's never ending events, it would only be natural to be humming a few tunes from Abba this week, since the musical "Mamma Mia" was on last week. Instead of waking up trying to get rid of "Dancing Queen's" tune from mah mind, I wake up surprisingly humming Bohemian Rhapsody; only the best song ever written and recorded.

Written by Freddie Mercury in 1975, the song is a style of rock opera with a very unusual musical structure. Despite that, it was released as single and became a huge success..

I wonder wat was going through Freddie's mind when he wrote the song… I wonder wat pain he must've felt, wat happened in his childhood?! Many link the song to the Vietnamese war, others say its more of a suicidal note… however, other believed that the lyrics were nothing more than utter gibberish written in order to fit the music. Unlike other musicians and other members of the band, Freddie never revealed the meaning behind his music or lyrics…..

Bohemian Rhapsody was named "The Best Single Of The Last 25 Years", and was the only single to have been UK Christmas # 1 twice.

The Lyrics hold soo many deeper meanings than wat we hear, i can go on for hours and pages and pages critiquing the words, instead of boring u, I will leave you with a bit of nostalgia instead; enjoy…


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=irp8CNj9qBI


Words and music by Freddie Mercury

Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-No escape from reality-
Open your eyesLook up to the skies and see-
I'm just a poor boy, i need no sympathy-
Because I'm easy come, easy go,little high, little low,
Anyway the wind blows, doesn't really matter to me,To me

Mama, just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead,
Mama, life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away-
Mama oooOooH,
Didn't mean to make you cry-
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow-
Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters-

Too late, my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine-Bodys aching all the time,
Goodbye everybody-I've got to go-
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth-
Mama oooOooOH- (any way the wind blows)
I dont wanna die,
I sometimes wish Id never been born at all-

I see a little silhouette of a man,
Scaramouch, Scaramouch will you do the fandango-
Thunderbolt and lightning-very very frightening me-
Galileo, Galileo,Galileo Galileo Galileo figaro-magnifico-
I'm just a poor boy nobody loves me-
He's just a poor boy from a poor family-Spare him his life from this monstrosity-
Easy come easy go-,will you let me go-
Bismillah! No! we will not let you go-let him go-
Bismillah! We will not let you go-let him go
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go let me go
No,no,no,no,no,no,no-
Oh Mama mia, mamma mia let me go-
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me, for me, for me-

So you think you can stone me and spin my eye-
So you think you can love me and leave me to die-
Oh baby-cant do this to me baby-
Just gotta get out-just gotta get right outta here-

Nothing really matters,
Anyone can see,
Nothing really mattered-,
nothing really matters to me,

Any way the wind blows....

Someday not so far away, ur going to be old, ugly, and wrinkly...
Someday not so far away, u will be in pain...
Someday not so far away, u will lose ur fame...
Someday not so far away, u will cry endlessly for nights...
Someday not so far away, u will realize that reality bites...

Someday not so far away, i will cry no more...
Some day not so far away, i will smile...
Someday not so far away, it will ache no more...
Someday not so far away, i will have faith again...
Someday not so far away, i will un-cocoon..
and Someday not so far away, i will be the one laughing endlessly...

and that day is not so far away...

u r already old, ugly, and wrinkly...
u r already hurting, regretting, and no more fame...

and; i am already healed from the outside, yet still aching from the inside... but 1 fine day... not so far away...
almost smiling, not aching, believing again...

Okkkayyy since I lost my old blog account… I'll be blogging here for sometime…

Its been a lovely week so far, I am surrounded by loved ones alhamdilula… if I have read my horoscope for the week it would've definitely went something like this:

Behold O' Aquarian, happy days are ahead of you.

This will be the week where u will reunite and strongly bond with old unexpected individuals. Yes there will be several of surprises ahead of you. Be ready to meet new people and reunite with old ones, breaking many boundaries put up either by you or others. A week packed with action, love, friendship and serenity. You'll find yourself giving a lot of advice in different matters, which surprisingly will be the turning point in their lives… (3adal 3ad)

This is a week of give and take, however it might seem that you are doing most of the giving, in fact you are "taking". Taking so much in return to be blessed enough to be able to bla bla bla gibberish gibberish gibberish ..
Hmmm now I am not making much sense, astrology might not be the field 4 me to evolve in… however not bad made myself sound good n wow...

Anyhow, other than the crappy weather, this week has just been great. Filled with positive energy, got some excess goosfraba's "just for this week" to give it out…

Nevertheless, I still wish to be reunited with a few other loved ones. Time might have drifted us slightly apart, but it will never take away any mental or emotional telepathy we had/have…

Feefoo: have a safe trip n don’t worry I am already munching on 7boodi's cheek sandwhich, I wonder how will 7amood sautéed legs be for lunch?

Toota: ma feyah saber till tomorrow, I am missing u like crazy…

B: a smart monkey doesn’t monkey with monkey monkey monkey etc… 3ala wazen ba6atna ba6at ba6en bint ba6a6tkom..

Munz: etsadgeen I came to discover yesterday we had it good with MFKS.. discuss it over sushi at Sumo's next week... ur treat...

Ok I haven’t blogged for a while so if this sounds shwya dull n self centred, please bear with me a 4 a while or simply ignore the url..

Till next time… Salam…

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